what's holding me back?
I'm trying to think about what God is teaching me. What is he wanting me to learn about myself? How can I change and grow? What can I do to better glorify him in my life?
When I sit back at the end of the day and pray - I feel ashamed, I feel like it's the first time I've done it all day. I know that I pray at random times throughout the day - but I think that simultaneously I don't. Often, I think about God and I think towards God. But I don't really open up the lines of communication. I don't take the time to listen. I don't take the time react. That's hardly praying.
I don't spend enough time in his word. God often speaks to us through The Bible. Many of the questions we ask already have answers. Many of our struggles have already been addressed. We just have to read about them. The more we learn about God - the deeper our relationship and understanding of him - the better we can glorify him.
That's the great thing about the Holy Spirit - he is there to guide us and help us understand God. But at the same time, he wants us to learn to take initiative. He wants us to grow in our faith and understanding. He wants us to learn from our mistakes. And he wants us to reach out to him. When we finally understand that OUR way is not THE way and start allowing him to have HIS way. That's when amazing things happen.
I pray that I can prioritize my life in this way. I need to start the day in prayer and scripture - but then allow it to become my day. Allow it to shape my day. Allow it to dictate my actions. If Jesus were to live my exact life - what would he do differently? If he did the same tasks - how would he approach them? If he had the same experiences, how would he react? If he had conversations with the same people, what would he say?
I suspect that my life wouldn't stay the same for very long. I suspect that the way he would do things would change things radically and quickly. So why isn't that happening? What's holding me back?
Fear. Fear of people. Fear of their judgement. Nervousness over what to say. Apathy. I need to care more. Love more. And feel the burden of the short time that remains.
It's not something that will happen all at once. I must simply begin and the urgency will come. The more I speak the more I will want to speak. Once you begin sharing God with others - it spreads quickly. The passions grows. I've experienced it before. I'm not sure where that fire has gone. But I pray that God will light it again!
When I sit back at the end of the day and pray - I feel ashamed, I feel like it's the first time I've done it all day. I know that I pray at random times throughout the day - but I think that simultaneously I don't. Often, I think about God and I think towards God. But I don't really open up the lines of communication. I don't take the time to listen. I don't take the time react. That's hardly praying.
I don't spend enough time in his word. God often speaks to us through The Bible. Many of the questions we ask already have answers. Many of our struggles have already been addressed. We just have to read about them. The more we learn about God - the deeper our relationship and understanding of him - the better we can glorify him.
That's the great thing about the Holy Spirit - he is there to guide us and help us understand God. But at the same time, he wants us to learn to take initiative. He wants us to grow in our faith and understanding. He wants us to learn from our mistakes. And he wants us to reach out to him. When we finally understand that OUR way is not THE way and start allowing him to have HIS way. That's when amazing things happen.
I pray that I can prioritize my life in this way. I need to start the day in prayer and scripture - but then allow it to become my day. Allow it to shape my day. Allow it to dictate my actions. If Jesus were to live my exact life - what would he do differently? If he did the same tasks - how would he approach them? If he had the same experiences, how would he react? If he had conversations with the same people, what would he say?
I suspect that my life wouldn't stay the same for very long. I suspect that the way he would do things would change things radically and quickly. So why isn't that happening? What's holding me back?
Fear. Fear of people. Fear of their judgement. Nervousness over what to say. Apathy. I need to care more. Love more. And feel the burden of the short time that remains.
It's not something that will happen all at once. I must simply begin and the urgency will come. The more I speak the more I will want to speak. Once you begin sharing God with others - it spreads quickly. The passions grows. I've experienced it before. I'm not sure where that fire has gone. But I pray that God will light it again!
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